Saturday, February 27, 2010

Tiffy with PaPa; Cayden with MaMa

Eventhough Tiffy has no more fever, the rashes on her body are reducing, but there is still risk that she will spread the virus to Cayden. Coincidently, Cayden's nanny is not free tonight, so we came out with this plan. I will bring Cayden to overnight at Cheras and hubby takes care Tiffy at home.
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Barbie, mummy miss you so much ohh~~~Without mummy at your side, you sleep well?

Friday, February 26, 2010

Recovering...

Tiffy's getting very much better today. I have stopped feeding her the fever and sore throat medicine. She's only taking the antivirus. I did not apply the teething gel as frequent as yesterday too.
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I feel very much relief. Happy to see my happy baby again. Happy to be disturbed by my busybody baby. Happy to have my both ears occupied with her voices all day long.
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Hands up baby!!! Give mummy a big big hug :D

Thursday, February 25, 2010

Getting better

Today, Tiffy is getting better, getting better in her emotion and mood today. There are still many ulcers in her mouth, gum and tongue, I can see it when I feed her milk. She's still complaining 'pain pain', but I got a 'wonder aid' to help her relief the pain temporary, that's TEETHING GEL. I got it from pharmacy and I checked with doctor, it's alright to apply it.
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Tiffy ables to eat and drink nen nen today. Eventhough she did not consume the normal portion she had previously, she's taking 6.5 oz of milk only instead of 8.5oz, she can only finish half bowl of cereal rice, but I'm happy enough. I'm even happier when I see her becomes very talkative today, she dance and shake her body and hands when she watched the cartoon this evening, so cute!!! she can shout very loud and laugh happily.
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Parent-in-law has gone to Genting in the afternoon, hubby asked if I could feed Tiffy medicine alone, hmmm....I think I can la....Amazingly, Tiffy's very well behaved, she opened her mouth willingly to let me feed. She did not cry or fuss. Maybe because her mouth is not pain anymore, thanks to the teething gel. Thumbs up for my little girl.
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I hope tomorrow will be a better day, hope Tiffy will recover very soon.

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Heartache II

I'm not going to bring Cayden home this weekend, Shirow is being affected with HFMD too. We are worried if bringing Cayden home, he will be the third one.
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I visited him at nanny's house today. He's sleeping when I arrived. Aunty told me that Cayden was very naughty yesterday midnite, he refused to sleep after feeding, and he wanted someone to carry him all the time. Aunty told me that she's very tired taking care of Cayden. How come??
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We sent Cayden to nanny's house on Monday. I called to check on him on Tuesday morning, aunty told me that Cayden is very good boy. Most of the time, eat sleep eat sleep, he even missed the time for feeding when aunty fed him at 7pm and he supposed to be fed again at 10pm, but he slept till 1am without waking up, so aunty wake him up for feeding. Again, he slept until 5 am for next feeding. I'm so happy when aunty told me this. Happy that maybe he will be very soon can wean off midnite feed. In another hand, I'm happy that he's not too burden to aunty. Midnite feed is really tiring, I can understand it very well.
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I miss Cayden the moment I stepped out from aunt's house. Maybe this is the nature of motherhood. I miss him so much, I really mean it. He's only 6 weeks old, he is not able to protect himself, yet he's stay alone at outside. I'm feeling so heartache.
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People ask me, why I dont take care Cayden myself?? Seriously, I cant cope with 2 babies. In the most worst situation I faced after CL left, big one is fussing, small one is crying and I'm expressing milk that time. how do I settle in that situation?? I crack my head. Even with the helping hand from hubby, it's still kelam kabut, maybe Cayden is more demanding. He needs to be carried most of the time. Anyway, I hope I can bring him back when he turns 6 months. By that time, I think he has developed more regular sleeping and eating pattern and also not waking up for midnite feed.
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Anyway, I hope Cayden will not send me to old folk home when I'm old by telling me that he's not able to cope in taking care of me :p

Heartache

I'm feeling terribly heartache today seeing Tiffy in such condition.
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She has many ulcers in her mouth, her hand and feet and body are full of rashes, she salivates so much without able to control it, she complaint so many times that she's in pain, she cried whenever something touches the wounds in her mouth, she became very quiet today, she did not smile or laugh as much as before, she fussed over trivial thing, she's clinging to me most of the time. 19 months, this is the first time she's seriously sick, this is the first time she behave like this. But, what can I do?? How can I help her to ease the pain?? Nothing!!!! I cant do anything to help her release the pain or uncomfortable on her body. I feel so guilty, I feel so heartache.
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She didnt refuse to eat, she wanted to eat most of the time, but once the food go into her mouth, she cried and complaint 'pain pain'. She cant eat. I felt my heart is breaking into thousand pieces.
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She wanted to drink water, she wanted to drink nen nen. But after a few sips, she cried and complaint 'pain pain' again. ohhh!!! I do not know what can I do for her?
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The Kumon sticker and paste book, her favourite book. She has been asking me to open, stick, open, stick the stickers inside the books for thousand times during my confinement month. Yet, I dont really spent any time seriously with her, sitting down, doing the stick and paste activities. Most of the time, I'll ask her to play with the book when I'm busy. Today, when I took out the scissors, glue and that book, she's so excited. Pulling out the stool, she sat next to me, waiting for me to open the book. One by one, I cut and let her paste the pictures to the book, teaching every word in it. But, she cant say the word out. Her mouth is pain. She only speak the word out once a while. I felt so heartache seeing her in this condition.
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I told her many funny things, I played with her, but she did not smile or laugh as previous, where is my happy baby? I feel super guilty and heartache.
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As a big eater baby, a happy-go-lucky baby, a kay-poh baby who talk non stop normally, I feel even more heartache when she became so quiet, so gloomy and no longer show her smiley face but cry most of the time.
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Feeding her medicine is even worst. We force her to lie down, we force her to open mouth. She cried and fight so hard, and then calm down and sobbed, at last, she's like begging us to let her sit up by saying 'chor chor, chor chor'. My tears are rolling down seeing all her reactions.
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My little girl, mummy is sorry to you, mummy didnt take good care of you and cause you fall sick, mummy is so guilty seeing you suffer in pain. Mummy's little girl, if you want to cry, if you want to be hugged, if you want to be sayang, mummy will be always with you. This is the only thing mummy can do now. You have to be brave, be strong, be tough to fight down the virus. Mummy loves you so so so so much!!!!

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Hand, foot and mouth disease

.Finally fall asleep after fussing so long. Feet full of rashes.
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Tiffy is down with hand, foot and mouth disease. Seriously, I got a big shock when doctor told me that Tiffy is affected with HFMD. She went to so many public areas recently, I'm not sure when and where she get affected. This disease can easily spreads through person-to-person contact with nose and throat discharges, saliva, fluid from blisters or the stool of a person with the infection. It can also be transmitted through shared items such as toys and utensils.
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Tiffy has fever 2 days ago, a mild one only, so I only gave her the fever medication. Until yesterday, she complaint her mouth is pain. Each time, when she tried to eat something, she will complaint, 'pain pain' and cried. Her feet, buttock, back, tummy are full of rashes. She fuss alot, small small thing can cause her cry. She cant take alot of food due to the ulcers in her mouth.
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Aiks, seeing my little one suffer with oral pain, I feel heart-broken. I should have be more alert with the symptoms and bring her to doctor earlier. Anyway, it's good to keep her quarantine at home for the next couple of days until she fully recover. Finger crossed that Cayden will not get affected when he's coming back this Friday. I need to wash and sterilize all the toys and change all the bedsheet before bringing him home. And also to maintain minimal contact of Cayden and Tiffy during this period.

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Tiffy is salivating so much due to the ulcers, so she's on her bib again

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

乌龟仔


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Cayden loves sleeping on his tummy. He would nap much better on his tummy than back. On his back, he'd startle himself awake all the time, but on his tummy, he slept much longer at a stretch. Sometimes, I would allow him to sleep on his tummy on my chest too.
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I know, by putting baby to sleep on his back is the safest position because it's the one that's least associated with sudden infant death syndrome (SIDS). However, sleep on his tummy is the only position which he could sleep better and longer. Hence, I only put him to sleep on tummy during day time. And I check on him if he's doing well regularly.
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Monday, February 15, 2010

CNY celebration

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Nin 30 (Saturday, 13.2.2010)
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We went back to Cheras in the afternoon, able to catch up with elder sis who came back from JB. By dinner, we headed back home for reunion dinner.
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Chor Yat (Sunday, 14.2.2010)
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Getting big angpow from parent in law and have breakfast at home. In law headed to Genting while we went to TTC's house and KK's new house cum 'bai nin'. At nite, we went to Fai's house for gambling session till 2am.
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Chor Yi till Chor lok (Monday till Friday, 15.2.2010 to 19.2.2010)
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Marathon gambling games, from Cheras to Selayang back to Cheras, from afternoon till midnite till dawn. Of Course only hubby involves in the game, my role is taking care Tiffy and Cayden, luckily I have my family members to help me on all these *appreciating*
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Chor Chak (Saturday, 20.2.2010)
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Stay at home all day long. At nite, celebrated father-in-law's birthday at Palace restaurant.
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Chor ba (Sunday, 21.2.2010)
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Tidy up Cayden's stuff at home, getting him ready to nanny's house on Monday.
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Eventhough we are not going anywhere during CNY, we are not doing something very special during CNY, I'm tired taking care Cayden during CNY, but in deed we had fun, catching up with all family members, chit-chatting, eating, drinking, laughing, joking. I'm sure Tiffy enjoyed CNY too, as she can eat as many 'forbidden' food as she wants, do not need to obey the sleeping time, play as much as she loves.
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P.S. This CNY, Tiffy understands that to get the angpow packet, she needs to say 'gong xi fatt cai', and her action makes everyone so happy :)

Thursday, February 11, 2010

1 month old

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Cayden is 1 month old today.
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weight : 4.83kg (last month : 3.23kg)
height : 56cm (last month : 51cm)
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  • On full breastmilk. 1st week - taking 2.5oz every 2 hour, 2nd week - taking 3 oz every 2 hours, 3rd week onwards - taking 3.5 oz every 3 hours
  • possetting or bring back some milk after feed each time.
  • Umbilical cord drop off on the 6th day after birth.
  • Still has mild jaundice, most probable due to breastmilk but totally harmless.
  • Develop more regular sleeping and eating patterns.
  • Stay awake and be alert for longer period towars the 3rd and 4th week. Normally stay awake for 2-3 hours after morning bath.
  • Still wake up for midnight feed every 3 hours.
  • Likes to be carried to sleep all the time, and need to be really deep in sleep before he can be put to lay on the bed, else he will cry again.
  • Prefer to sleep on tummy or sleep on mummy's chest.
  • Able to turn it from side to side when lying on tummy.
  • Able to hold his head up brieftly when bring supported against shoulder.
  • Smiles responsively.
  • Do not like being naked for too long, will cry and wail if we take too long to change him.

Saturday, February 6, 2010

Penguin penguin...

Guess who am I???
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It's me!!!!
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Brown penguin Tiffy
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Almost melted penguin under 30 degree celcius weather.
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Friday, February 5, 2010

Love you....

Me : di, why not your company hire me la...I can be your company valuable asset :p
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Hubby : no la, working together will add on more 摩擦 in 夫妻's relationship
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Me : Silence~~~~~
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In my heart, I felt so touched with hubby's statement. For appreciating our relationship and loving me so much. He thinks ahead of me, he see farer than me, he plans everything for us, he's giving his best to us, I knew it.
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He has not been quarrelled with me for so long until I cant recall when is the last time we both had vocal fight. He always listens to me and then comforts me, he always pays attention to my complaint and then give me a big warm hug. He's so patience when I lost my temper. He just quietly walk away when I yelled and screemed at him, and then after I calmed down, he will pat my back, asking if I'm ok? Along my journey of pregnancy until now, he has been showing his greatest effort in easing my burden despite his own busy job.
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Di, seriously, I appreciate it alot alot. Forgive me for thinking nonsense these two nights. Without you with me...ohh!!! I cant imagine my world without you. So, please love me more everyday ya. Tiffy, Cayden DiDi and I need you every second, every minute.
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LOVE YOU......................................very very.................................................much

Thursday, February 4, 2010

Mummy, good night...

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YESTERDAY NITE
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Before you fall asleep, mummy kissed goodnite barbie and wish you have a good night.
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Mummy : Good nite, barbie (kiss on forehead)
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TONIGHT
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Before mummy wishes you a good night, barbie turn your head and look at mummy.
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Barbie : Good night, mummy.
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Mummy : oh, mummy's barbie still remember 'good night' har?? mummy's barbie understand what is 'good night' har?? mummy's barbie very good girl la, mummy loves barbie. (with a big big hug and a big big kiss on barbie's forehead)
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Mummy's so touching, for my clever big big girl, for my warm-hearted good girl girl. Mummy loves you :) muaccckkksssss~~~

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

Leng Leng le??



Mummy : Where is daddy?

Tiffy : (flip the sheet with daddy)

Mummy : Where is mummy?

Tiffy : (flip the sheet with mummy)



Repeated for few times and Tiffy suddenly asked me this...

Tiffy : Leng Leng le??
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Mummy : speechless :x for a while and then laugh out loud.
WUAHAHAHAHA :D
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Tuesday, February 2, 2010

3 weeks +-

Cayden @ 2 weeks 6 day.
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Cayden @ 3 weeks



Cayden @ 3 weeks 1 day
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From 3 oz of milk every 2 hours, Cayden's taking 3.5 oz of milk every 3 hours now.
Aunty used to call you 小牛 everytime you make noise. Mummy loves to call you 小恐龙, everytime you wake up, you will make loud noise, just like what daddy says,' 沉睡的恐龙终于苏醒了。' :)

Monday, February 1, 2010

When he's hungry


This is what I do when I'm hungry....

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So, please get prepared the milk for me every 2 hour sharp ya :)